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A lapse of Memory by TheMichaelMacRae A lapse of Memory by TheMichaelMacRae
I've drawn this girl way way too many times, but I can't get enough of her. She's just a figment of my imagination, she's the one I turn to when I let my mind wander, she is made for me and only me.

Now I'm going to contradict myself and tell you a bit about her:

Sybil, a bright perky yet contemplative young woman was hit by a car and paralyzed from the neck down at the age of 24. She had been in a coma for a week before she awoke to find that her body was left in ruin. Due to a multitude of other permanent internal injuries she was to be confined to a bed for what was most likely to be the rest of her life.

The first years were busy with family and friends at her side almost daily but inevitably as time moved on so did everyone else. Her sisters grew and had families of their own. Her friends eventually forgot she existed. And Sybil's once bright radiant personality turned to one of cynicism and depression.

30 years past and the disconnect with the world around her she discovered ages ago had grown into a monolithic wall. Trapped, unable to speak or unwilling, to anyone who witnessed her laying in her bed she was all but comatose.

Sybil was drawing back into her shell. She was struggling to find another kind of existence within her own mind, one where she could be free again. Simple daydreams were not enough, she needed something more. Days of intense concentration, no sleep, no need for it. She would lay there with her eyes closed searching the recesses of her mind for any shred of life left in her stubborn breathing corpse.

Then... in an instant, something clicked. The world stopped. Her eyes opened and she found herself falling through clouds. She fell through the skylight of a vast mansion standing a mid the ocean like an island. decorated top to bottom with ornate patterns and textiles. This place was beautiful combination of pristine hand crafted workmanship and graceful aging. This mansion was a home within the deepest pit of her imagination. A place only reached by a handful of people throughout history. Her new world was ever lasting and limited only by her imagination. She lives there to this day.

Also I should mention this is an edited version of this [link] I always loved this picture, but recently felt I could fix it up and make it one of my favorites again
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Messire-William Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2016
Magnifique :)
black-ronin1228 Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2016  Professional General Artist
Don't ever take this piece down, nor change her story. It is the ultimate in heartbreaking. It's awesome she found her escape, but sad that the real world ignored her. Awesome concept, but we've spoken of it before in private email. :)
mockingbirdontree Featured By Owner May 25, 2015
You are a great painter and writer. You love to find out about the boundaries of human behavior and the conscious mind. I love your stories and pictures and want to encourage you to keep on writing and painting, I would miss something if it were not there.
okay21 Featured By Owner May 6, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i feel sad now Cry forever 
BriarSeiberlyn Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I love your characters and this story. You are one of my favorite artists. Personally this story is too dark for me. Of what I've seen of your pictures I have patched together my own story. In my version, civilization has crashed, an ice age is coming on to earth, several interesting characters survive, and many of the humans have turned into cannibalistic demons. Broken robots are the remainders of human existance and are repaired by distraught human souls.
MAGZEE Featured By Owner May 27, 2014
Beautiful story.  

Tonight I have been looking at/ reading your other work... The Chelsea grinner demons, oilman and the cyborg.  I love your story telling!

I had thought Perhaps this beautiful lady was the female cyborg your character had recognised as possibly someone he had long ago loved, truly the forgotten girl! 

I'm torn though, because they are both epic stories! Hentaioutcast's comment highlighted what a powerful piece this is, in its own right!  

i admire you!  Such talent in expressing your thoughts and stories, muses and musings into artwork and your writing.  

I'm addicted!! 
Niobesnuppa Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014
It's so beautiful, so realistic-looking.
RockLou Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Why is the original psd file available for download? That's kind of weird.

Anyways, it's a beautiful picture. And she is quite beautiful herself, if I may say so. :P
TakataRikuzen Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can see what you feel for her, and why you feel for her. I too have my Muse, the one whose pictures I draw over and over and when I think of her music plays in my mind.
SophistcationOfSorts Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014  Student General Artist
This is perfect.
ironsides11 Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013
Your beautiful story adds so much to your already incredible painting. I bow to your artistic skill, sir. 
ShAd0wC4t Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013
What a really sad story, but you wrote it really well. You're art is amazing, and your characters are so real and expressive! I'm inspired, really. Good job. :)
hentaioutcast Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
This is awesome.

Before I read your description of your work, I examined it for a while and this is what I got out of it:

--Her face bears a weary (from the slight bags under her eyes) and wistful expression, mixed with profound anhedonia and jaded disbelief.  This look on her face, mixed with the fact that she seems to be examining and feeling her hands lets the viewer know that this is a very depressed and weary woman who is as surprised as she is able to be that her hands are the way they are. 

--This feeling of depression is also reinforced by the color of her clothing and its weathered condition.
----Without knowing that she's a quadriplegic, I would have guessed that her hands had been scarred or missing (not something like a missing tattoo because of how depressed she obviously is).

--The background seems to be a palace or mansion (given the ornate paintings and the green patterns under them) which has fallen into decrepitude.  It also feels surreal and otherworldly, I think because the way the subject is lit and the way the walls behind her are lit don't quite match. 
------But, and let me stress this, in a GOOD way.  The effect is in no way jarring or negative.  The difference in lighting gives the painting a power it otherwise wouldn't have had. 
----This background, when juxtaposed against the painting's subject and the state of her clothing, creates the impression of elegiac and eternal solitude.

--Another excellent addition to this painting (I'm sorry, is it a painting?  What medium did you use?) is the painting's frame.  When viewing a work on DeviantArt, we as the audience know (whether consciously or not) that the works displayed here don't need frames because we experience them through the lens of our computer screen and not in real life.  The fact that the digital version of "A Lapse of Memory" has a frame reinforces her solitude and separateness from the rest of reality.
----This is a stroke of genius, in my opinion.

I apologize for giving a critique when you didn't ask for it, but I had to express myself after experiencing "A Lapse of Memory."

TL;DR This is a frakking amazing work of art.
viqagal Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2013
She seems so peaceful. I really like this piece:)
oO-Monkey-Oo Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Hobbyist
Gorgeous work! :)
Zaphyer Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2012  Student General Artist
Oh, wow. Reading her story gave me goosebumps all over! It brings so much to an already interesting and beautiful picture. I love it. Bravo!
Razzle-dazzle1606 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2012  Hobbyist
THAT. Is awesome.
I pause a lot for dramatic effect.
Her backstory is totally amazing. I love the idea of it all.
I have a question I just have to ask. Is she named after Sybil, the pseudonym for Shirley Ardell Mason? I was just wondering, since that Sybil had D.I.D, which isn't what this Sybil has (If she has anything, because maybe she's just smarter than the rest of us.) but the name of the picture put the idea in my mind. :)
TheMichaelMacRae Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Nope, I had to google this Shirley lady... a weird story indeed.

The name was just the first name that came to me.

As for her 'condition' I guess you could say there's an element of fantasy to it. Or maybe not... It's as a result of being so cut off from everything and unable to move and express herself, her mind just went off to another place.
bluemattersoda Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
a very beautiful story to a very beautiful portrait
Craizdraw Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012
You are simply amazing!
Inganah Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012
Amazing story and illustration. Sybil seems very immersive.
Valsharess Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012
You are ridiculously talented
JuliaFox90 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Professional General Artist
Amazing work!
DeadCobra Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012
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